Start of Something New

Is it time to lose yourself in the myriad of voices, or stay true to what you believe in? Should you change the things around you, or should you let others change you? Or alternatively, is there a gray sanctuary?

End of the Beginning

So orientation has passed, somewhat quickly. I still feel quite contradictory about it. On one hand, I’m reluctant to let it just end – y’know, who doesn’t want to have more fun…

It was my first time experiencing a bonfire.  Damm HOT and WOW.

(Okay I know I’m not making sense, but it was a really GOOD GOOD NIGHT.)

And then back to the point.. On the other hand, I’m a little glad that orientation has finally ended, because life will resume its original course after the a long 7 days of fun. That’s good in a way.. I guess I’m really not a very orientation-kind-of person.

P.S. Photos taken from http://www.hcunite.com/?p=2217

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7 days of fun/horror (?)

So the first day of orientation passed pretty quickly. It was not as bad as what I had expected. There are people I already knew, so it wasn’t the most awkward and embarrassing orientation I’ve been to. My OGL is an easy-going guy. That’s good in such a way that I can have my own personal space.

People say I should move out of my comfort zone and experience new stuff. It’s true I’m a pretty much pessimistic moron, but I’ll try my best la. Like talk to some girls or something. I’m also trying to put things in perspective, so I don’t make myself so miserable all the time. Everything’s gonna be fun..

Except dancing. Dancing is a damm TURN OFF, especially when I need a partner (I hope she will forgive me if I accidentally hit her, and I’m quite sure that will happen because the choreography is so complicated). Dancing Schmancing!

Okay, enough of rants. SLAP SLAP myself – time to be be more open-minded in view of tomorrow’s activities.

Happy

Today is a good day!

1) Clinched my first deal – This gives me sense of satisfaction, because I’m actually have the ability to earn some pocket money for myself. Gonna earn more money soon, wish me luck!

2) Completed my interview for the Interact Club – Well, they asked a few questions that got me thinking. I don’t know whether I’ll be accepted or not, but at least I thoroughly enjoyed the entire process of the interview. It wasn’t as stressful as I thought.

3) Tomorrow is a holiday – WHICH MEANS MORE SLEEP =)

I think I’m still in the holiday mood.

When will school finally start?

P.S. Girls’ Generation – Oh!

Girls’ Generation again :)

Yay, the teaser for SNSD’s upcoming album (Oh!) is fantastic. Very catchy and addictive, i like. ^_^

Perspectives

I am stuck in a deadlock.

Sometimes, life is just tough. We do not get what we wish for, and things do not just happen to our liking as well. There are so many things that I want to achieve, but there is only so ‘much’ that I can do – and this makes me depressed at times.

Such a desolated scenario can manifest in many aspects of life. When it comes to relationship, I’m probably a fked up coward. I might not be really good at approaching people. I might not have been really friendly and nice to people around me. And there are things that I want to confess, but have not done so because I lack the courage. There are just so many things that I want, but I can’t do it, and this has led to a stalemate.

Perhaps it is true that such failures are attributed to personal flaws. But I’m not so sure about such intrinsic weaknesses  being the sole factor leading to failures. Sometimes, there are just many ‘things’ we need to consider before we take a step forward – and such ‘things’ will inevitably add on to your limitations and dilemma.

Wait, don’t get me wrong. I still believe life has a meaning to it. It may not be clear, but there are things I enjoy doing, and such things bring me pleasure. I probably do not have the kismet to get all that I want, but at least all the little happy things in life that I can achieve….. are worth working for. I don’t think I’ll let go of what I want, but life cannot afford me the luxury of everything I want, so I guess I’ll just have to take cautious steps into the deadlock.

Gotta remember my direction and just work for it.

BRACE YOURSELF.

(P.S. I know I said BRACE YOURSELF for the umpteenth time already, but I don’t care.)

RIS LOW IS BACK (?!)

Thanks brother. =)

原來愛情那麼難

Embrace 2010.

I remember I posted what I wanted to fulfill in 2009 last year (DUHZ). In short..

1) To be friendly. Checked.

2) To be a strong and independent person. Tried to.

3) To improve my English. Slightly better than my borderline A2 in 08.

4) To improve my Sciences too. Same as 08.

Well, I daresay I did fulfill my aims to quite a  large extent. Firstly, I did open myself up to more people, otherwise I’d have continued being an outcast in my class. Secondly, I can’t measure how strong or independent I am now, but  I think I still rely too much on others, so it’s hard to say I’ve become stronger as compared to who I was back in 2008. Thirdly, my overall English and Sciences grades didn’t show a dramatic improvement, but at least they remained roughly consistent, and consistency is good.

So, I’m quite contented with my overall progress for ‘09, and knowing that ‘10 will be a much much much tougher year, I think I need to determine a direction to work for. (Some are repeated from last year.)

1) To be friendly.

2) To be a strong and independent person.

3) To work hard and do well for the subjects I’m gonna take. (To work even harder if I take Bio.)

4) NOT to neglect my CCA / SL.

Personally, I think 3) & 4) should be of utmost priority, and I’ve no idea whether I can look back in 2011 and say I’ve accomplished 4). To me, these resolutions sound really challenging. I hope I can take up challenges and never give up. GOOD LUCK! (to me and everyone else.)

Early Happy New Year

I won’t be home tonight for new year, so I’ve gotta post this in advance. I’ve been occupied recently, so I can’t come here as much. SORRY!

But I’ll make sure “DON’T NEGLECT YOUR BLOG” will be one of my most important new year resolutions.

Love everyone.  See you soon again!

P.S.And I hope someone will come in and help me delete the early when it’s 12:00 tonight!